Girlvert: A Porno Memoir

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But given the billions in revenue earned by the porn industry every year, its patrons obviously extend beyond those branded as "perverts" and "deviants. Small's brand of porn, which I haven't seen, nor did I make any comments about folks that are anti-porn both publicly and in the privacy of their own homes. Lest readers get any romantic notions about the industry (as "Ashley Blue," the author appeared in movies at the extreme end of the spectrum), Small pulls no punches. We hear about filthy porn sets; malodorous bodily secretions; uninhibited drug use; dysfunctional relationships, mercenary porn stars, drug dealers, and producers; insanely reckless behavior and an enormous amount of dangerous, degrading sex, some of which, it must be said, the author seems to have rather enjoyed. In her glory period as a porn actress, she was very much focused on the moment, and the book comments on the need to stay stoned or in some sort of high.

There's a happy ending - the author marries a nice man, gets back into art and writing, and her ex, after sinking to the level of a low level bukkake guy gets on a rehab program. This is a difficult book to review because while I didn't like it I did learn a lot from it about the industry. The author clearly thought she had free will and was acting under own agency (and not that of her abusive boyfriends, the abusive system, the copious drugs and drink) but do I think she had free will? I have read a great deal on torture, and even people who spend years of their life dominated by others finds ways to perceive themselves as actors in their own lives.

I'm not saying that I am completely comfortable with the greater implications of gonzo porn (or any porn, for that matter)—because I'm not—and frankly I don't need to be. Afterwards, he doesn't want just to get rid of them but invites them to a day relaxing by his swimming pool. Her family life was messed up and that is totally not out of the norm, but she had to do something to make a mark on this world. I admire and appreciate anyone who is willing to expose themselves by writing a book about their most personal experiences. The Nervous Breakdown"Oriana Small has pushed herself to the outermost extremes of what the body and mind are capable of--all before turning thirty years old--and now she's made it an authentic read for the rest of us to marvel at, elevating the depravity and denial inherent in the pornographic arts to a singular literary experience.

You get a taste of her bawdy, sometimes wounding humor, and the book keeps a good balance between details that raincoat-sporting porn fans will appreciate and explanations of the basic elements of the industry that non-fans will find educational.Hardcore seems committed to the lifestyle, even on his days off rollin' around town with meth - using skanks wearing schoolgirl outfits. Also I appreciated that this is a memoir not a ‘my porn hell’ as she is certainly no victim and she is not regretful of her choices.

She works hard to put her porn experiences in an appropriate emotional context, describing why she felt that some of what she did was more liberating than degrading. I loved it and recommend it highly to people who like learning about the behind-the-scenes aspect of the adult film industry. To calculate the overall star rating and percentage breakdown by star, we don’t use a simple average. Her lifestyle becomes bizarre in the sense that she couldn't fully see the big picture, but the details were being focused - but only for that moment or two. I loved it—it was exhilarating, I could feel a rush in my entire body, a rush of fluids out of the stomach, mouth, eyes, and nose all at once.From accolades to agony, GIRLVERT illuminates the surreality of a life lived beyond all comprehension. She was one of those rare porn stars who could do humiliating things on camera without seeming humiliated in the least. Therefore, due to the drinking/drug input and just having a great deal of cash around - the focus is only for the next 12 hours or so.